I Am Not Your Victim vividly details the evolution of domestic violence during the 16-year marriage of author Beth Sipe. Encouraged to publish her story by her therapist and co-author, Evelyn J. Hall, Beth relates the background and events leading up to and immediately following the tragic act of desperation that ended the life of her sadistic perpetrator. Beth's subsequent mishandling by the police, the military, a mental health professional, and the welfare system illustrates how women like Beth face further revictimization and neglect by the very systems that should provide support and assistance. Insightful commentaries written by experts in the field follow Beth's story and deepen readers' understanding of the causes and process of spousal abuse, why battered women stay, and the dynamic consequences of domestic violence. This updated edition includes new commentaries and an epilogue that tracks what happened to Beth in the years following the book's publication.
Chapter 9: Rolling the Dice
Rolling the Dice
In searching for an apartment, my two main concerns had been to find a place within James's school district and to find a decent neighborhood, at a rent I could afford. As a nurse's aide, I made about $800 gross per month. I planned to continue working any additional hours or shifts I could get, plus my work as an extra in Crime Story. Even though the rent was $325 per month, I was determined to make it on my own this time. In fact, I worked on Crime Story from midnight October 18 until 2:30 p.m. on Monday, October 19.
Things were rough money-wise at first. Sam didn't pay a penny for James, but I was so relieved to be ...