I Am Not Your Victim vividly details the evolution of domestic violence during the 16-year marriage of author Beth Sipe. Encouraged to publish her story by her therapist and co-author, Evelyn J. Hall, Beth relates the background and events leading up to and immediately following the tragic act of desperation that ended the life of her sadistic perpetrator. Beth's subsequent mishandling by the police, the military, a mental health professional, and the welfare system illustrates how women like Beth face further revictimization and neglect by the very systems that should provide support and assistance. Insightful commentaries written by experts in the field follow Beth's story and deepen readers' understanding of the causes and process of spousal abuse, why battered women stay, and the dynamic consequences of domestic violence. This updated edition includes new commentaries and an epilogue that tracks what happened to Beth in the years following the book's publication.
Chapter 13: My Cup Overflows
My Cup Overflows
Although I trusted Evelyn and I could feel myself falling apart, I went into the hospital with misgivings. Debra begged me not to admit myself because she had had a friend in a violent relationship who had admitted herself for alcohol treatment. Once she was admitted, the hospital had committed her and kept her in a locked ward. After forty-five days, when her insurance benefits ran out, the hospital released her.
Debra told me, “Beth, if they get you in there, they will not let you out.” This scared me, but I was more scared of falling completely over the edge of sanity. There was just too much coming at me from every direction.
The admittance procedure is hazy in my mind. ...